This writing thing is just so sporatic for me. I have moved back to my Southern California homeland and find myself juggling just a bit more than my Iowa lifestyle was used to. I grew calm in the loss of things to accomplish. Sitting on the couch, looking at the snow, trying to stay warm...those were the things that were strenuous. Southern California, and its overabundant craziness is taking a bit longer to get used to.
I love it. Don't get me wrong. How can you not love the daily weather. I have no more seasonal depression. I don't feel like I am going to get stuck in a ditch, eaten by a wampa ice creature, and my family has to use the fur of the wampa to survive. It's good to not have those fears.
I do lean on a little complaining as there is just so much to do. There are people that I actually see. I am not a shut-in. I travel to them on a freeway and hang out. I drive on a bloody freeway....not a dirt road, but a BUSY freeway. I'm in an alternate universe. After living a very (almost) solitary existence (w/a wife and dog), I find myself surrounded by parents, an additional animal, old friends, brother, visitors, a full-time job with more people, and thousands of beer options. It's quite overwhelming.
Where was I going with this? Oh yeah, I am freaking overwhelmed with life. I need a break. I need a cabin. I need an isolated cabin (wampa free) with just my wife and two dogs. I can feel the peace now. I need an isolated wampa-free-cabin, the wife and dogs, no allergies, and beer. No, I need an isolated wampa-free-cabin, the wife and dogs, no allergies, beer, and a pillowtop king bed, deluxe bathroom and 90 inch screen television. Yes, that's it. I feel better already.
Yes, a hypoallergenic isolated wooded area. Oh, did I mention I am allergic to everything? Yup, I have a severe allergy for every season. I have a severe allergy for trees, grass, molds, dust, and weeds that grow everywhere. The doctor told me that's why I get sick all the time. Really? That is odd. Why would someone who never has a break from the world ever get sick? Doesn't make any sense at all to me. Yes, that's what I need an isolated wampa-free-hypoallergenic-isolated-wooded-area, the wife and dogs, no allergies, beer, and a pillowtop king bed, deluxe bathroom and 90 inch television.
What to do about food? Oh, I am allergic to those too. No potato, corn, coffee, cocoa, milk, pecans, clams (don't even start), baker's yeast, eggs, banana, orange, apple, and garlic. GARLIC? Are you kidding? Garlic is the official spice for EVERYTHING. Anyway, I would like to find an isolated wampa-free-hypoallergenic-isolated-wooded-area with the wife and dogs, no allergies, beer, and a pillowtop king bed, deluxe bathroom, 90 inch television, and allergy free food. Ahhhh, yes, that sounds better.
Of course, I will want to leave that cabin in less than a week, but I feels good to dream about it.
Ahhhh dreams....just as good as virtual reality.
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